On a lighter note, Buffython 2014 had reached season seven, which is now permanently fused in my mind with the memory of necking with another man's beautiful wife, because I had to.

Sherlock

Jan. 5th, 2014 10:04 pm

A lot more people seem to be hating, this time round. I prefer to enjoy my entertainment than to hate on it so I decided that was going to be bloody brilliant and it was.

 

so there.

It is truly amazing that a man who died forty years ago - ten years before I was born - has gifted me with the most wonderful group of friends anyone could imagine.

 

RIP JRRT

So David Cameron has a bad back that is going to stop him from hunting deer in Scotland.  Apart from reminding us that he's an out of touch posh git, does anyome else REALLY REALLY want him put through an ATOS assessment and forced to work jn a menial job with a disability for a while?

MEME

Aug. 20th, 2013 09:33 pm

When you see this on your flist, quote some Shakespeare on your LJ.

 

The spirit that I have seen
May be the devil: and the devil hath power
To assume a pleasing shape; yea, and perhaps
Out of my weakness and my melancholy,
As he is very potent with such spirits,
Abuses me to damn me




ill

Aug. 12th, 2013 03:42 pm

When I'm cold in bed? No cats. When I'm in bed with a temperature?  Four cats.

 

ETA. Five cats.

 

ETA2 where's my flippin' tall dark and mysterious yet noble in bearing traveller
with an infusion of Athelas,  infused in hot water and not his own spit then?

On a lighter note, I bought too many grapes on offer in sainsbury's so I tried freezing some. Eating them frozen is one of t the tastiest things I have ever discovered.

by the way

Jul. 18th, 2013 11:41 pm

I wish I cared about stuff at the moment. I wish I cared about fandom politics and sexuality/gender issues and even the sodding government sodding everything up, and fic that is awesome and the latest facebook shitstorm/"improvement" and what's doing the rounds on Tumblr and all that. I wish I cared about writing stories and even just watching fandom shows. I wish I did.

 

Thing is, this is how I know my illness is much, much worse than it has been in the past. I've never walled myself off from fandom like this before. I have been and am, really, really, really ill. Too ill to work, too ill to be able to go outside the flat in a bad day. Just too ill. I realised doing my DLA form today that I don't conceptualise myself as ill, just as someone who can't cope. But I am, actually, frighteningly, ill enough to continue with a behaviour which could stop my heart, right there in an instant, because I just can't stop doing it.

 

I fear that there's no coming back from this. I don't know how to get back to fandom. I feel like it's just built up this huge wall of terror and loss and if I make a chink the whole thing will fall down on me. Knowing that I've probably not been missed by more than one or two people makes it easier to stay away. I'm scared to come back and be rejected and I'm scared to try and realise I can't do it. All I think about is my illness and I don't want that in my writing, I don't want to see other people writing about it and fucking it up, I don't want to write the next chapter of something and realise no-one cares.

 

But I want, so much, to come home.

After nightly disturbances all week I have finally plucked up the courage to ask the drum and bass fans inhabiting the courtyard to go inside tonight after I came home to a room stinking of marijuana a few minutes ago and loud music still on.

 

Turns out they're not inconsiderate wankers, just stupid enough not to work out that a flat that can take up at the most two sides of a square courtyard might have somebody living on the other two sides. Even if that somebody periodically turns her lights on and off.

Question

Jun. 17th, 2013 10:13 pm

Say you were Jim Moriarty and could break into anywhere, and you could carry and one thing or group of things (ie they belong in a set or they all match and make a group), but only once...

where would you break into and and what would you take?

(I know mine already but I'm interested in what things other people would steal before I divulge mine. :p )

Crossover?

May. 25th, 2013 08:46 pm

Wouldn't Wishing you were somehow here again be much more interesting if the cemetery turned out to be full of weeping angels in league with the Phantom?

bloody hell that's kim catrall the evil vulcan.

FYI

May. 3rd, 2013 10:55 pm

BC on cumberbitches: "I'm not sure how far feminism has been set back."

*cheers*

Margaret Thatcher has passed away.

I've loathed few people in my life - the few I have are all tories.  I honestly don't know how to feel.  All deaths are sad, but it doesn't change anything else.

by the by

Apr. 3rd, 2013 10:30 pm

SO sad about today's knews from Iain Banks. I so hope he gets to see his last book published.

Eating Disorders Awareness Week this week has the theme "Sock it to eating disorders". My mama and I being craft nuts, we're making socks.   I will post some of our in progresses but please please donate because for people like me who are being screwed over by NHS commissioning authorities, Beat is an invaluable source of information and support.

 

Beat Just Giving page

 

 

photos! )

Feeling good this evening

dammit

Jan. 17th, 2013 07:49 pm

One of these facts is false. Which one?

 

A. Gandalf the Grey wears a blue hat.

 

B. Gayalondiel is not a forgetful numpty.

This evening Gok Wan on his new show had a goth SF&F fan in for a makeover. I switched off after it became clear that we were going to hear that she was using her fannish behaviour to keep people - notably nice attractive boys - repelled. However he did this ghastly thing where all her (female) friends and family talked about how much she was trying and failing to hide and repel everyone and that being dramatic and goth/alternative must be a shield she puts up to hide her nice normal personality.  She seemed to be unaware that they thought that way.

 

Which made me think, I'm unaware of my friends thinking I'm putting up a front but what if I'm wrong? my personal feeling is that I'm more honestly myself now than when I was trying to act normally and look normal. But I'd be interested to know if someone thought otherwise.

 

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